Friday, February 18, 2011

It has been awhile....

It had completely slipped my mind that I still had this blog. I have to thank the random person that put a comment about selling penis enlargement supplies on an old post, as it got me back here. It was really fun reading and seeing what I had done before and then looking through the last 3 years of BJP that show such beautiful and insightful works of art. I am inspired to join in again this year, even starting a month or so late.

It has been a particularly hard year. I have had major surgery, continuing health issues, learning to live with chronic conditions and pain, being laid off work, etc.....just to name a few issues. It has been a huge battle not to let it get and keep me down, and some days I win, others I can only fight to a draw. Mike and my mom have been incredibly supportive and motivating throughout it all. I am truly blessed there.

It also has been so difficult on the friends front. I kind of had this silly idea that by the time you and your friends are in their 30's and 40's, we left high school behind. Wow, was I wrong. I ended up having a falling out with a group of them (fault lying on both sides as it always does) but it left me in a lonely place at a time I was pretty vulnerable. I decided I would not say anything bad about them, or what had happened from my perspective, and it has hurt a lot hearing from others how many mean and petty things they are saying about me to anyone they encounter.

And that brings me back to the BJP. Trust is a huge subject and I really want to explore it through these next 12 months. I don't have an idea what it looks like yet, but I can't think of a better topic for me to personally explore this year.