It has been a particularly hard year. I have had major surgery, continuing health issues, learning to live with chronic conditions and pain, being laid off work, etc.....just to name a few issues. It has been a huge battle not to let it get and keep me down, and some days I win, others I can only fight to a draw. Mike and my mom have been incredibly supportive and motivating throughout it all. I am truly blessed there.
It also has been so difficult on the friends front. I kind of had this silly idea that by the time you and your friends are in their 30's and 40's, we left high school behind. Wow, was I wrong. I ended up having a falling out with a group of them (fault lying on both sides as it always does) but it left me in a lonely place at a time I was pretty vulnerable. I decided I would not say anything bad about them, or what had happened from my perspective, and it has hurt a lot hearing from others how many mean and petty things they are saying about me to anyone they encounter.
And that brings me back to the BJP. Trust is a huge subject and I really want to explore it through these next 12 months. I don't have an idea what it looks like yet, but I can't think of a better topic for me to personally explore this year.